Doing This for ME

See that girl? That was me, May 25th 2010, the day I found out that I was pregnant with Sophi. I weighed 139 lbs and was in the best shape of my life. I was running 7-9 miles a week and doing the P90X program. I felt amazing. My goal was to get myself into shape before I got pregnant to try and prevent health issues during my pregnancy. I made that goal with no problem. My next goal was to continue my workouts throughout my pregnancy. This did not happen. As soon as we found out (just shy of 4 weeks along) my doctor had me stop my P90X. He said I could keep running, so I did but only for about 6 more weeks. The summer was getting so hot that even in the early mornings, I was overheating. I started having some cramping and spotting so I was advised to stop. I tried a couple of pregnancy workout dvd's. Boring. So I just quit.

I don't know how it happened but I only gained 24 lbs when I was pregnant. I weighed 163 lbs the night I gave birth. I just knew that the rest of the weight would come off quickly when I could start working out again in 6 weeks. Six weeks later, I was advised to not work out because I was struggling with keeping my milk supply up and I wanted to continue breast feeding more than I wanted to lose the weight so now my plans to get myself back on track would be on hold until Sophi turned one.

I don't know how I let it happen, but, I kind of just let myself go. I gained almost all of my pregnancy weight back. It sucks and if I wasn't on anti-depressants, I just may hate myself for it. Instead, I've made the decision that starting this week, it's my time. It's time for me to focus in and get back to being the healthy, fit, tight body that I was on May 25th, 2010. So I'm putting it all out on the line right here for the world to see. I'm terrified and ashamed but I know that holding myself accountable and Mitch holding me accountable might not be enough. So here goes...

This is me now. Not inside, just out, but here I am. These pictures were taken Monday night (March 19th, 2012). I currently weigh 155 lbs and am nowhere close to the best shape of my life but that's ok, because starting now it WILL get better.

Yesterday morning, Mitch and I made the commitment to start waking up at 5:00am 6 days a week and doing the BeachBody Insanity Workout . I won't lie, it's hard. Real hard. We did the Fit Test yesterday and this morning we did the Plyometric Cardio workout. I had to really dig deep and push my way through. I had to stop and rest for a few seconds here and there and I moaned and groaned my way through but I DID IT. For once in over a year, I did it for ME. Not for Sophi, not for Mitch or for our dogs or our friends or family, not (just) for bathing suit season. I pushed through and did it for Kammi.

I'm excited to be taking this journey again. I can't wait to see what the results will be. I'm not aiming for a certain weight or pants size. I just want to be fit and feel great in my skin. I know that I can. I know that I will. I hope that you will stick around and take this journey with me!