On the Up & Up

So the last week has been a tough one. It's terrible how I crave feeling terrible. It's like, as soon as I feel normal I'm terrified that there is something wrong with our baby. The paranoia has been eating me alive! I've been having dreams (nightmares) that we go in for our next ultrasound & they can't find a heartbeat. I mean, why is my mind so tormented with these awful thoughts? Who knows. So yesterday was a bit of a breaking point. I called Mitch in tears & told him how I was feeling & about the dreams I've been having (poor guy puts up w/ so much these days!), anyway, it was weird b/c I hadn't had a single "symptom" in 3 or 4 days & then mid-rant I got so light headed that I felt like I was going to pass out & had to sit down on the kitchen floor to gather myself. Then came the mild cramps & the exhaustion. My body was making a liar out of me!! So I took it easy yesterday. I am trying so hard to just "go with it" but it is so strange the things that my body is doing right now. From one minute to the next I have no idea of what's going on or how I will feel & I have no control over the situation (which drives me nuts!). But I know that no matter what, this baby may be in my belly but he/she is in God's hands & He is going to be the one who will make the ultimate decision so I just need to calm my nerves and just have faith. So I am feeling much more on the up & up starting today and I will try my best to stay that way. Less than two weeks & we will be in the 2nd trimester. I am counting down the days!!!

I am feeling pretty good & trying to stay out of this wet Florida heat. It's been nearly 100 degrees every day here...bleh! I've been trying to get out early & get the pups walked about 3 miles a day. It's good for us all & it feels good to be able to wake up early & have the energy to get up & move. :) I am only 11 1/2 weeks along right now so no big changes that can be seen just yet. Baby is only about the size of a golf ball & is still hiding behind my pelvic bone so I haven't felt any movement nor am I showing but I'm sure a lot of things will change in the next couple of months in that department. :) We should be finding out what the gender is around the 2nd week of September as long as the baby cooperates w/ the ultrasound machine. Can not wait for that day!! We have our next ultrasound on the 30th of this month @ 13 weeks 3 days & can't wait to see how much our little one is growing! But I have definitely been blessed w/ a super easy pregnancy so far. :)

11 Week Bump...or lack there of:



Oh & today gets us into the "Under 200 days left" category!! I can't believe it! It's all happening too quick! I just pray that I can keep everything well documented so I never forget this experience...the good & the bad! :)