Dear Uterus, The Answer is NO.

Well, that time has come again. If you're a mom, then you probably know what time I'm talking about. That time when my body starts SCREAMING for another baby. When any time I see a beautiful, squishy newborn or see a pregnant woman, my uterus starts aching for another baby. It's even so bad that when I see my pregnant mom friends pin something on Pinterest that has to do with baby stuff, I get a little sad. It's crazy. It's like I'm in heat. Mitch and I decided when I was pregnant with Sophi that we were not going to have anymore children. Mentally, I know this and I'm good with it. But my body is fighting me big time right now. I have even been torturing myself by looking back at all of the pictures and videos I took of Sophi when she was a newborn. I mean seriously, who wouldn't want another one of these?



It's tough for me, looking back at those videos and pictures. Thanks to my battle with PPD, I feel like I was robbed of the sweet times with my newborn. As a matter of fact, I hardly remember the good times. I remember the bad ones. A lot. So is it selfish that I want a second chance to be a mom to a newborn? To have a chance at the experience that I wanted my entire life? I don't think it is. I talked to Mitch about it and we decided that, certainly not right now, but if we still want to go down this road, we will start trying again after this next deployment cycle is over. {Eeep!} That's not until late next Summer though, so we will see how we're feeling then.

Never in a million years would I have thought that I would want to have another baby. But here I am, uterus aching like mad for another pregnancy and another chance at having a sweet little squishums in my arms again.

I can't believe I'm about to hit the Publish button on this...